dreams be dreams.....

last night i dreamt i was at the beach. the sea was really clear and calm. i was on a canoe with several other people, all men. one of them i knew, and another was a a crush of mine. we were all chatting and having a good time when it capsized. i don't know why, but it just did. we were all underwater under the canoe and laughing. and swimming. then i found myself in the lobby of a hotel. i entered the elevator with my crush and another guy. we were going up. the guy hugged me, and my crush was standing in the corner watching this happen. strange....

talk about....

nothing to do... it's 3:01 am and i still can't sleep. it sucks. for the last week all i did was sleep. and now i can't.
my dad offered to buy me the new ibook. should i? hahaha... of course you would all say yes. i would like to modify it though. how exciting. :O)
okay my brother just arrived home from a performance. i wonder how they did. must've been cool. though i am pretty sure he was uncomfortable... ( we both have funny tummies today :p)
anyway, i will try to go to sleep now.

cleansing

since i last wrote, a lot has happened... my grandmother passed away, some one got sent to rehab, another has become more of an alcoholic, and another has become paranoid. hahahaha. i know it's not funny. but my family has a gift for seeing the humourous side of life. :O) besides, my grandmother is definitely happier where she is now, and is literally an angel now.
i feel bad for my grandfather. he foregts sometimes.... i can't blame him, we all forget sometimes.
they say if the man dies first, the woman will always be okay. not the other way around. :O(