oooh!

walking out of the hotel someone shouted "hey, sleeping beauty! how are ya?!"
hahaha. how do they know i'm sleeping beauty?
yes, i would be snow white.... but i would rather spend my time sleeping, rather than cleaning up after the 7 dwarfs.
what are their names again?

doc
happy
sleepy
bashful
grumpy
dopey
and?
sneezy....
i always forget one of them. thank God for Google.

random thoughts of the day.

it... what is "it?"

I was closing one evening last week, and I had to do a cash drop. so, I called security to escort me. (Not that I was carrying that much money.... but it's procedure) So, it was officer William that got me. and officer William is always very well dressed, in a nice suite, with a four point fold handkerchief... really nice, and always takes care of all of us.
As always, he asks me how I am. I always answer the same way "I'm okay, and you?" but this time, he says "I know you're more than okay.. you know why?" and I ask him why. He says "because you are the kind of girl that has it... you got it. you keep doing what you are doing and you will go places. You have it, the look, the attitude, the spirit... you'll get places. let me tell you, you'll get what you want always...... and men may come and go. and some know you have it.... but don't get me wrong. there will be some fools that won't know it until it's too late. You keep doing what you do...."
Meanwhile, I'm standing there with an idiotic smile on his face wondering how we got to this conversation. (what is "it" anyway?").... By the time I finish processing what he's said in my brain, it's too late to ask him questions. He had to pick up another person for another cash drop. So, there.
These last two weeks have been weird... flatteringly weird.
It all started last week when I random guy in the metro tells me in an Australian accent "are you getting off here?...... you really are quite beautiful, ya know?"
Then another guys sings to me "lost with out you" in crystal city.
Hahaha!
I have been told that I can get whatever I want. But, I have no idea what I want.
So much has happened in the last year... that I am still feeling my way through.

so, i have been dating this guy. and i haven't put any labels on it... i like him. but i don't know. last night we decided to have dinner and drinks at the roof top of his building. a girl is there. E. E asks us if we are seeing each other. and he was behind me. and i couldn't even say anything. He answers "yeah we are" and she asks for how long. and i say april. I figure April. Since that is when we started to see each other weekly. sometimes bi-weekly. so go figure. i am the non-committal one. i couldn't answer. for the life of me. but at the same time, he leaves on the 19th for thailand for 8 days. then he goes to law school in sacramento. i planned to move to SF... even before i met him. i still want to go. but. there is always a but. i don't know what follows. there are so many things. like a hotel is opening in barcelona next year.
the hotel in SF has no spa.
on the other hand. R is there. And I would love to spend time with R and JM will be taking his masters there. so that should be fun.
and of course H is there. or will be there. he says he is excited to see me in october, if his schedule permits. the wedding is a saturday. so if he does come. he has to let me know soon. so i can tell rose. but at the same time. i am a little hesitant to bring him. i ahve no idea why. i think it would be easier if all this happened in manila. then i could just introduce him to you all in one blow and tell me what you think. fudgemuffin.
and last night, we didn't have an argument, but we just both started saying what we felt. and basically. i told him i felt like i was being hidden, since i hadn't introduced me to his friends.
and he said he felt bad that i didn't tell him that my friends had invited him out the last few weekends. my point is, why will i tell him if he had plans made already? why even tell him? and he felt bad. for me not telling him and for him not introducing me to his friends. he said that his friends know about me, just that when he has plans with me and they invite him he says "sorry, i am planning something with V" it is sweet. but at the same time. i am wondering how come it never occurred to him to introduce me. i know he never mixes his friends (office group never mingles with dartmouth group) which i find funny. but hey, different cultures. and i am lucky that he is very sweet and a gentleman with me. and is patient with me. which i think is very important.
i like it that we can talk to each other. and he worries and wants to know what i am thinking.
and even if he is leaving and of course i want to hear from him, at the same time i am okay with only seeing him once in a while. i know he's busy and i think it helps that i know he isn't interested in anyone else.
he says he likes me a lot. and i know that. and he felt bad that he was frustrating me.
i know, because he holds me in public. even in front of a friend he'll pass on the street, he won't let go of my hand. or he'll put his arm around me. so yes, i can tell he likes me. but it's me. :p i should just stop. really.
i am going to pig out on mango jam and bread.
*mwah*

again.... argh!

so, these last months have been strange... sorry if i have been neglecting blogspot.

i have been doing the part time job and looking for another one. I found a job at the mandarin oriental.... and i start on the 18th.

i have been going out with a guy.... super nice.... BUT he leaves for thailand on the 19th... for two weeks. then he goes to california. f*ck. had to be me to chose someone who is leaving.... though i have been planning to move there. but still. sucks. and i just realized that mandarin in SF has no spa.

dumbass.

argh! why?!

okay.. i really shouldn't obsess. but why can't guys just be a little less fickle-minded? i hate this coy game you guys play. :p dammit.

so lazy

okay... my clothes have been laying on my bed since december when i was trying to pack... and now they are laying on my bed as i try to UNPACK. :p i can't win. i have no where to put anything. i need to rearrange my closet again. soon. social security won't answer the freaking phones.







i hate it.




anyway... think positive.... you attract what you think and feel. hapy thoughts.... happy thoughts..... argh! :P i'm on hold again.

boredom

i should be fixing my room..... since i can never decide what to wear.... all my clothes are on my bed. :p someone help me?

weeeeeeeeeeeeee!

i'm happy. :O) super happy. we got out bonuses today. and the best part is that i didn't expect it. :O) i only started to work here 2 months ago part-time.

i'm so happy. and grateful. :O)

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

:p

:p strep throat is going around.... and the flu from the change in weather. today, you don't need a sweater.... yeasterday, i needed two. :p sucks.

i need to go to the grocery. i'm cravign for something (i don't know what yet)... sucks.


i think i want to dye my hair dark...

reindeers

so my aunt and i went to the grocery this evening at around 10 pm... (we just realized that we needed food and juice)... so my aunt goes upstairs to her room to get her coat. my uncle is still asleep from his "nap" and tells her (hearing the noise) "where are you going? take teh damn reindeer with you. they are making too much noise!" so my aunt laughs and tells me... so i go to his door and say "hey! i would take them, but one is missing.... oh he's on your bed asleep!" and my uncle says "oh" and starts to pat the pillow *tee hee*
so we leave and come back and he's still there and shouts at us "PILAR GOT THREE OF MY REINDEERS! COñO!"
and i said "i think aunt helen got one too!" and he stood up shouting "what the hell has helen got to do with the reindeers.... damn i'm dreaming!"

HAHAHA!

pre-merry christmas....

~vixen~

Sprite Commercial

HAHAHA!

from my inbox

YEHUDA BERG'S DAILY CONSCIOUSNESS TUNE-UP

FRIDAY, NOVEMBER 17
A fundamental principle of Kabbalah is whoever looks for a life without trouble - and sits waiting for what is comfortable - will never find it. However, when a person is constantly working towards doing what is right without caring if he will be comfortable or not, this person will always have an easier and better life.

Seek areas of your life where you're desperate for comfort and run towards change!


so, for almost a year I have been reading up on Kabbalah.... I have to say, I really do like it's teachings. its beliefs are the same as the core essense of Catholicism and Buddhism. So it doesn't conflict at all.

anyway.... that't it. kinda short, but i have to leave now. BYEEE!

dammit

i'm making butter cake. it smells great... *sigh* but i put too much of the batter in the pan. HAHHAHA! OOOPS.... OH WELL... i guess i can fix it.

oh! oh! oh!

did i mention i am obsessed with baking? because i can't find yummy cakes here aside from crispy kreme? or however you spell it.....


i made pineapple upside down cake a few days ago... Mrs. Mills would be proud! :O)

tomorrow i am making butter cake. i can't wait. i hope it comes out like the ones there!

ruin me....

ruin me dammit. :p limit me, or try to..... either way, i will still get what i want. :p so, there. i will get my chili red mini... soon

pizza! and borat, and some other stuff

hee hee! jax! rina! i wish i were with you guys when i watched borat. i found it hilarious. but it's toilet humour.

i had a whole pizza for myself.... yikes....... and my grandmother already warned me not to gain or lose weight. My dress is made for the wedding. I can't wait. It's gorgeous.

i need more money. :p donations are welcome.... send me your coins. hee hee!

oh-fiz

at the office right now. and i am bored. there really isn't much for me to do. :p

went out with shana the other night. :O) and guess what i saw?? a man wearing the shirt "don't hassle the hoff" HAHAHA! I had to take a picture....

he was really nice about it and posed for me. maybe i should take more pictures of people. HAHAHA!

fall.....

fall smells the same all over the world (where there is fall ofcourse.... duh!) i hate the cold, but i do love to dress up for it... watching the birds fly south for the winter.... and rest on telephone wires...and watch the leaves change.... and watch them fall.... but no rake them..... hee hee.

i'm trying to customize this damn blog.... i need help. :p

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anyway, still in madrid. and i am loving it. postponing my life has never been better. i wonder for how long i can keep this up... hee hee!

i have seen all of my friends here. except my cousin chris. hahaha! he's been sick. so i will call him again tomorrow. tomorrow i go buy a winter coat in H&M or ZARA. hopefully i find one. liz clairborne had an awesome white down vest which i wanted. if i freeze to death, at least i will look gorgeous.

i want to learn to snow baord! :O) my new obsession at the moment. hahaha. only because my cousin joselu gave me the idea. i'm not too old to learn am i?

OOOOOOOOOO!

oh.... i have eaten way too much for the second night in a row.... last night i ate in "la trainera" ... so yummy. i had about 20 gambas a la plancha (grilled shrimp) and half of the salpicon. a sea food salad. so yummy. *sigh* i so love that restaurant.

www.latrainera.es

true

true to my name. i am in madrid now. hee hee.... i love it.
so far i think i have had about two dinners each night since monday. hahaha. going to see cousins and friends this whole week then maybe go to barcelona on monday to visit my cousin.

oh! i finally bought a camera! but it's still being delivered to springfield. :o( i am so excited! and i have to have my regular camera fixed.

how are all of you? i miss you guys.