2011

Welcome 2011!!!
Day one of year... Started off by heading out at 1:30 am to meet my friends. I met a close friend of mine and her husband for drinks at his parent's house... being the silly ducks we are, we started speaking in a British accent for almost the whole night... errr... morning.
We ended up going to a bar called "Members Only". Please note: I am not a member. But, all my high school friends were there. A few of which I hadn't seen in a while. So it was nice to catch up. I think, we only spoke normally when we had to speak to other people; and go back to the Brit accents with each other. hahaha. silly.
After several drinks. We came back home. 6 am. The sun was out. Horrors! I ran straight to bed... then 5 hours later, I was woken up by my dog. cutest. thing. ever.

I welcome you, 2011. Seems like you are going to have a lot of good things in store for me (if last night was a preview). Good times. I'm sure I will have many of them! :O)

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!

Happy New Year to everyone!!! :O)

2010 was great fun, but i know 2011 will be even better! :O)

dreams...

strange dreams last night... :O) haha. all i can say is i had dry fig newtons. :p i woke up hungry.


oh so i might be a temp at this company in the Presidio. I hope I get it, even if i am a temp, even if it ISN'T make-up. :p


i'll take it!!!

it's my birthday in exactly 1 week.... my unlce just informed me that he sent me scotch Royale Salute (the blue bottle he said, to represent the sapphires in the crown jewels) 21 years old (younger than me), and smooth.....i love my uncle. :D

geeze

so after 7 months of not talking (specifically said i didn't want to talk to him "EVER") he writes me an email.... understand, he tells me after two years that he wasn't ready for a relationship, and he didn't have time for one. sounded fishy at the time. still think it is. and 2 months later he has a girlfriend. so maybe he DID cheat on me.... i didn't want to be friends... i still don't. but he has this inherent need to friends with EVERYONE. so he emailed me. saying how he thought my work was great and he was happy for me and if i could suggest a spa gift for his friend's wife who just gave birth. i didn't want to reply. but mommy taught me better, so i did. i gave him the website of the spa (of which he was asking about) and the phone number. and i also added a P.S. saying that it isn;t recommended that women who are lactating or pregnant get massages.... i thought that would be the end of it... that maybe he would get the point. but he replies "thank you. i appreciate it, maybe i will get her something else." the end. i am not even going to reply.

i don't see the point in being friends with people who are not honest with you or give you the respect you deserve. the sad thing is, i think he thinks we can be friends. unfortunately i feel life is too short to waste it on people who don't treat you the way you are meant to be treated. golden rule, treat others the way you want to be treated.

it's 1:40 am.....

so i got my not-so-little starfish tattoo the other day... the detail on it is amazing. but i find it a little too big now..... it's still cute though. It's a fat one. A friend asked if I got Sponge Bob on the other foot. That gave me the idea to put eyes on him and make it look like Patrick. hahaha! 

My only consolation regarding the size of it, is that it's light and i can cover it with concealer very easily. LOL. 

friends-> i haven't told my family so shut it!

Why did I get it? I caved in to peer pressure. Yes, at my age, it still exists. hahaha. 

*sigh*

it's been a while since i have posted here. i have been studying and been really lazy after school.
life has been calm and steady. since i stopped talking to dumbass.... life is surprisingly cool. haha.

about 2 more weeks and i am done with school... tomorrow i am ordering my airbrush and supplies and i can start airbrush tanning! yaaay!

oh....

it's been a while. i even forgot this was here. until i started reading a certain blog on here which has caught my attention, as well as the rest of the worlds'...
i am sad about it. because i actually know those people. they are not my friends... but i have met them. including the owner of the blog.

such a strange world.... i never would have thought that he could do something like that. :p

what to do!?

so here i go...
i still haven't told my uncle and aunt that i am moving in with shana in august. yikes!
i need to pay 865.50 for august.
and i want to buy the iphone.... i get paid every thursday.... so if i wait for this thursday (and not spend) and wait for next thursday... then i will be okay. haha. now i just have to control my urges. :p dammit. thank God my weeks go by quickly. :D

oooh!

walking out of the hotel someone shouted "hey, sleeping beauty! how are ya?!"
hahaha. how do they know i'm sleeping beauty?
yes, i would be snow white.... but i would rather spend my time sleeping, rather than cleaning up after the 7 dwarfs.
what are their names again?

doc
happy
sleepy
bashful
grumpy
dopey
and?
sneezy....
i always forget one of them. thank God for Google.

random thoughts of the day.

it... what is "it?"

I was closing one evening last week, and I had to do a cash drop. so, I called security to escort me. (Not that I was carrying that much money.... but it's procedure) So, it was officer William that got me. and officer William is always very well dressed, in a nice suite, with a four point fold handkerchief... really nice, and always takes care of all of us.
As always, he asks me how I am. I always answer the same way "I'm okay, and you?" but this time, he says "I know you're more than okay.. you know why?" and I ask him why. He says "because you are the kind of girl that has it... you got it. you keep doing what you are doing and you will go places. You have it, the look, the attitude, the spirit... you'll get places. let me tell you, you'll get what you want always...... and men may come and go. and some know you have it.... but don't get me wrong. there will be some fools that won't know it until it's too late. You keep doing what you do...."
Meanwhile, I'm standing there with an idiotic smile on his face wondering how we got to this conversation. (what is "it" anyway?").... By the time I finish processing what he's said in my brain, it's too late to ask him questions. He had to pick up another person for another cash drop. So, there.
These last two weeks have been weird... flatteringly weird.
It all started last week when I random guy in the metro tells me in an Australian accent "are you getting off here?...... you really are quite beautiful, ya know?"
Then another guys sings to me "lost with out you" in crystal city.
Hahaha!
I have been told that I can get whatever I want. But, I have no idea what I want.
So much has happened in the last year... that I am still feeling my way through.

so, i have been dating this guy. and i haven't put any labels on it... i like him. but i don't know. last night we decided to have dinner and drinks at the roof top of his building. a girl is there. E. E asks us if we are seeing each other. and he was behind me. and i couldn't even say anything. He answers "yeah we are" and she asks for how long. and i say april. I figure April. Since that is when we started to see each other weekly. sometimes bi-weekly. so go figure. i am the non-committal one. i couldn't answer. for the life of me. but at the same time, he leaves on the 19th for thailand for 8 days. then he goes to law school in sacramento. i planned to move to SF... even before i met him. i still want to go. but. there is always a but. i don't know what follows. there are so many things. like a hotel is opening in barcelona next year.
the hotel in SF has no spa.
on the other hand. R is there. And I would love to spend time with R and JM will be taking his masters there. so that should be fun.
and of course H is there. or will be there. he says he is excited to see me in october, if his schedule permits. the wedding is a saturday. so if he does come. he has to let me know soon. so i can tell rose. but at the same time. i am a little hesitant to bring him. i ahve no idea why. i think it would be easier if all this happened in manila. then i could just introduce him to you all in one blow and tell me what you think. fudgemuffin.
and last night, we didn't have an argument, but we just both started saying what we felt. and basically. i told him i felt like i was being hidden, since i hadn't introduced me to his friends.
and he said he felt bad that i didn't tell him that my friends had invited him out the last few weekends. my point is, why will i tell him if he had plans made already? why even tell him? and he felt bad. for me not telling him and for him not introducing me to his friends. he said that his friends know about me, just that when he has plans with me and they invite him he says "sorry, i am planning something with V" it is sweet. but at the same time. i am wondering how come it never occurred to him to introduce me. i know he never mixes his friends (office group never mingles with dartmouth group) which i find funny. but hey, different cultures. and i am lucky that he is very sweet and a gentleman with me. and is patient with me. which i think is very important.
i like it that we can talk to each other. and he worries and wants to know what i am thinking.
and even if he is leaving and of course i want to hear from him, at the same time i am okay with only seeing him once in a while. i know he's busy and i think it helps that i know he isn't interested in anyone else.
he says he likes me a lot. and i know that. and he felt bad that he was frustrating me.
i know, because he holds me in public. even in front of a friend he'll pass on the street, he won't let go of my hand. or he'll put his arm around me. so yes, i can tell he likes me. but it's me. :p i should just stop. really.
i am going to pig out on mango jam and bread.
*mwah*

again.... argh!

so, these last months have been strange... sorry if i have been neglecting blogspot.

i have been doing the part time job and looking for another one. I found a job at the mandarin oriental.... and i start on the 18th.

i have been going out with a guy.... super nice.... BUT he leaves for thailand on the 19th... for two weeks. then he goes to california. f*ck. had to be me to chose someone who is leaving.... though i have been planning to move there. but still. sucks. and i just realized that mandarin in SF has no spa.

dumbass.

argh! why?!

okay.. i really shouldn't obsess. but why can't guys just be a little less fickle-minded? i hate this coy game you guys play. :p dammit.

so lazy

okay... my clothes have been laying on my bed since december when i was trying to pack... and now they are laying on my bed as i try to UNPACK. :p i can't win. i have no where to put anything. i need to rearrange my closet again. soon. social security won't answer the freaking phones.







i hate it.




anyway... think positive.... you attract what you think and feel. hapy thoughts.... happy thoughts..... argh! :P i'm on hold again.

boredom

i should be fixing my room..... since i can never decide what to wear.... all my clothes are on my bed. :p someone help me?

weeeeeeeeeeeeee!

i'm happy. :O) super happy. we got out bonuses today. and the best part is that i didn't expect it. :O) i only started to work here 2 months ago part-time.

i'm so happy. and grateful. :O)

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

:p

:p strep throat is going around.... and the flu from the change in weather. today, you don't need a sweater.... yeasterday, i needed two. :p sucks.

i need to go to the grocery. i'm cravign for something (i don't know what yet)... sucks.


i think i want to dye my hair dark...

reindeers

so my aunt and i went to the grocery this evening at around 10 pm... (we just realized that we needed food and juice)... so my aunt goes upstairs to her room to get her coat. my uncle is still asleep from his "nap" and tells her (hearing the noise) "where are you going? take teh damn reindeer with you. they are making too much noise!" so my aunt laughs and tells me... so i go to his door and say "hey! i would take them, but one is missing.... oh he's on your bed asleep!" and my uncle says "oh" and starts to pat the pillow *tee hee*
so we leave and come back and he's still there and shouts at us "PILAR GOT THREE OF MY REINDEERS! COñO!"
and i said "i think aunt helen got one too!" and he stood up shouting "what the hell has helen got to do with the reindeers.... damn i'm dreaming!"

HAHAHA!

pre-merry christmas....

~vixen~

Sprite Commercial

HAHAHA!

from my inbox

YEHUDA BERG'S DAILY CONSCIOUSNESS TUNE-UP

FRIDAY, NOVEMBER 17
A fundamental principle of Kabbalah is whoever looks for a life without trouble - and sits waiting for what is comfortable - will never find it. However, when a person is constantly working towards doing what is right without caring if he will be comfortable or not, this person will always have an easier and better life.

Seek areas of your life where you're desperate for comfort and run towards change!


so, for almost a year I have been reading up on Kabbalah.... I have to say, I really do like it's teachings. its beliefs are the same as the core essense of Catholicism and Buddhism. So it doesn't conflict at all.

anyway.... that't it. kinda short, but i have to leave now. BYEEE!

dammit

i'm making butter cake. it smells great... *sigh* but i put too much of the batter in the pan. HAHHAHA! OOOPS.... OH WELL... i guess i can fix it.