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2011

2010-12-31T21:13:00.000-08:00

Welcome 2011!!!
Day one of year... Started off by heading out at 1:30 am to meet my friends. I met a close friend of mine and her husband for drinks at his parent's house... being the silly ducks we are, we started speaking in a British accent for almost the whole night... errr... morning.
We ended up going to a bar called "Members Only". Please note: I am not a member. But, all my high school friends were there. A few of which I hadn't seen in a while. So it was nice to catch up. I think, we only spoke normally when we had to speak to other people; and go back to the Brit accents with each other. hahaha. silly.
After several drinks. We came back home. 6 am. The sun was out. Horrors! I ran straight to bed... then 5 hours later, I was woken up by my dog. cutest. thing. ever.

I welcome you, 2011. Seems like you are going to have a lot of good things in store for me (if last night was a preview). Good times. I'm sure I will have many of them! :O)

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!

2010-12-31T07:14:00.001-08:00

Happy New Year to everyone!!! :O)

2010 was great fun, but i know 2011 will be even better! :O)

dreams...

2009-04-17T12:09:00.000-07:00

strange dreams last night... :O) haha. all i can say is i had dry fig newtons. :p i woke up hungry.

oh so i might be a temp at this company in the Presidio. I hope I get it, even if i am a temp, even if it ISN'T make-up. :p

i'll take it!!!

it's my birthday in exactly 1 week.... my unlce just informed me that he sent me scotch Royale Salute (the blue bottle he said, to represent the sapphires in the crown jewels) 21 years old (younger than me), and smooth.....i love my uncle. :D

geeze

2009-04-04T00:18:00.000-07:00

so after 7 months of not talking (specifically said i didn't want to talk to him "EVER") he writes me an email.... understand, he tells me after two years that he wasn't ready for a relationship, and he didn't have time for one. sounded fishy at the time. still think it is. and 2 months later he has a girlfriend. so maybe he DID cheat on me.... i didn't want to be friends... i still don't. but he has this inherent need to friends with EVERYONE. so he emailed me. saying how he thought my work was great and he was happy for me and if i could suggest a spa gift for his friend's wife who just gave birth. i didn't want to reply. but mommy taught me better, so i did. i gave him the website of the spa (of which he was asking about) and the phone number. and i also added a P.S. saying that it isn;t recommended that women who are lactating or pregnant get massages.... i thought that would be the end of it... that maybe he would get the point. but he replies "thank you. i appreciate it, maybe i will get her something else." the end. i am not even going to reply.

i don't see the point in being friends with people who are not honest with you or give you the respect you deserve. the sad thing is, i think he thinks we can be friends. unfortunately i feel life is too short to waste it on people who don't treat you the way you are meant to be treated. golden rule, treat others the way you want to be treated.

it's 1:40 am.....

2008-09-29T01:40:00.000-07:00

so i got my not-so-little starfish tattoo the other day... the detail on it is amazing. but i find it a little too big now..... it's still cute though. It's a fat one. A friend asked if I got Sponge Bob on the other foot. That gave me the idea to put eyes on him and make it look like Patrick. hahaha!

My only consolation regarding the size of it, is that it's light and i can cover it with concealer very easily. LOL.

friends-> i haven't told my family so shut it!

Why did I get it? I caved in to peer pressure. Yes, at my age, it still exists. hahaha.

sigh

2008-09-27T22:08:00.000-07:00

it's been a while since i have posted here. i have been studying and been really lazy after school.
life has been calm and steady. since i stopped talking to dumbass.... life is surprisingly cool. haha.

about 2 more weeks and i am done with school... tomorrow i am ordering my airbrush and supplies and i can start airbrush tanning! yaaay!

oh....

2008-03-16T21:18:00.000-07:00

it's been a while. i even forgot this was here. until i started reading a certain blog on here which has caught my attention, as well as the rest of the worlds'...
i am sad about it. because i actually know those people. they are not my friends... but i have met them. including the owner of the blog.

such a strange world.... i never would have thought that he could do something like that. :p

what to do!?

2007-07-25T11:56:00.001-07:00

so here i go...
i still haven't told my uncle and aunt that i am moving in with shana in august. yikes!
i need to pay 865.50 for august.
and i want to buy the iphone.... i get paid every thursday.... so if i wait for this thursday (and not spend) and wait for next thursday... then i will be okay. haha. now i just have to control my urges. :p dammit. thank God my weeks go by quickly. :D

oooh!

2007-07-19T18:09:00.000-07:00

walking out of the hotel someone shouted "hey, sleeping beauty! how are ya?!"
hahaha. how do they know i'm sleeping beauty?
yes, i would be snow white.... but i would rather spend my time sleeping, rather than cleaning up after the 7 dwarfs.
what are their names again?

doc
happy
sleepy
bashful
grumpy
dopey
and?
sneezy....
i always forget one of them. thank God for Google.

random thoughts of the day.

it... what is "it?"

2007-07-17T18:51:00.000-07:00

I was closing one evening last week, and I had to do a cash drop. so, I called security to escort me. (Not that I was carrying that much money.... but it's procedure) So, it was officer William that got me. and officer William is always very well dressed, in a nice suite, with a four point fold handkerchief... really nice, and always takes care of all of us.
As always, he asks me how I am. I always answer the same way "I'm okay, and you?" but this time, he says "I know you're more than okay.. you know why?" and I ask him why. He says "because you are the kind of girl that has it... you got it. you keep doing what you are doing and you will go places. You have it, the look, the attitude, the spirit... you'll get places. let me tell you, you'll get what you want always...... and men may come and go. and some know you have it.... but don't get me wrong. there will be some fools that won't know it until it's too late. You keep doing what you do...."
Meanwhile, I'm standing there with an idiotic smile on his face wondering how we got to this conversation. (what is "it" anyway?").... By the time I finish processing what he's said in my brain, it's too late to ask him questions. He had to pick up another person for another cash drop. So, there.
These last two weeks have been weird... flatteringly weird.
It all started last week when I random guy in the metro tells me in an Australian accent "are you getting off here?...... you really are quite beautiful, ya know?"
Then another guys sings to me "lost with out you" in crystal city.
Hahaha!
I have been told that I can get whatever I want. But, I have no idea what I want.
So much has happened in the last year... that I am still feeling my way through.

so, i have been dating this guy. and i haven't put any labels on it... i like him. but i don't know. last night we decided to have dinner and drinks at the roof top of his building. a girl is there. E. E asks us if we are seeing each other. and he was behind me. and i couldn't even say anything. He answers "yeah we are" and she asks for how long. and i say april. I figure April. Since that is when we started to see each other weekly. sometimes bi-weekly. so go figure. i am the non-committal one. i couldn't answer. for the life of me. but at the same time, he leaves on the 19th for thailand for 8 days. then he goes to law school in sacramento. i planned to move to SF... even before i met him. i still want to go. but. there is always a but. i don't know what follows. there are so many things. like a hotel is opening in barcelona next year.
the hotel in SF has no spa.
on the other hand. R is there. And I would love to spend time with R and JM will be taking his masters there. so that should be fun.
and of course H is there. or will be there. he says he is excited to see me in october, if his schedule permits. the wedding is a saturday. so if he does come. he has to let me know soon. so i can tell rose. but at the same time. i am a little hesitant to bring him. i ahve no idea why. i think it would be easier if all this happened in manila. then i could just introduce him to you all in one blow and tell me what you think. fudgemuffin.
and last night, we didn't have an argument, but we just both started saying what we felt. and basically. i told him i felt like i was being hidden, since i hadn't introduced me to his friends.
and he said he felt bad that i didn't tell him that my friends had invited him out the last few weekends. my point is, why will i tell him if he had plans made already? why even tell him? and he felt bad. for me not telling him and for him not introducing me to his friends. he said that his friends know about me, just that when he has plans with me and they invite him he says "sorry, i am planning something with V" it is sweet. but at the same time. i am wondering how come it never occurred to him to introduce me. i know he never mixes his friends (office group never mingles with dartmouth group) which i find funny. but hey, different cultures. and i am lucky that he is very sweet and a gentleman with me. and is patient with me. which i think is very important.
i like it that we can talk to each other. and he worries and wants to know what i am thinking.
and even if he is leaving and of course i want to hear from him, at the same time i am okay with only seeing him once in a while. i know he's busy and i think it helps that i know he isn't interested in anyone else.
he says he likes me a lot. and i know that. and he felt bad that he was frustrating me.
i know, because he holds me in public. even in front of a friend he'll pass on the street, he won't let go of my hand. or he'll put his arm around me. so yes, i can tell he likes me. but it's me. :p i should just stop. really.
i am going to pig out on mango jam and bread.
*mwah*

again.... argh!

2007-06-10T16:40:00.000-07:00

so, these last months have been strange... sorry if i have been neglecting blogspot.

i have been doing the part time job and looking for another one. I found a job at the mandarin oriental.... and i start on the 18th.

i have been going out with a guy.... super nice.... BUT he leaves for thailand on the 19th... for two weeks. then he goes to california. f*ck. had to be me to chose someone who is leaving.... though i have been planning to move there. but still. sucks. and i just realized that mandarin in SF has no spa.

dumbass.

argh! why?!

2007-01-24T18:51:00.000-08:00

okay.. i really shouldn't obsess. but why can't guys just be a little less fickle-minded? i hate this coy game you guys play. :p dammit.

so lazy

2007-01-19T08:20:00.000-08:00

okay... my clothes have been laying on my bed since december when i was trying to pack... and now they are laying on my bed as i try to UNPACK. :p i can't win. i have no where to put anything. i need to rearrange my closet again. soon. social security won't answer the freaking phones.

i hate it.

anyway... think positive.... you attract what you think and feel. hapy thoughts.... happy thoughts..... argh! :P i'm on hold again.

boredom

2006-12-16T10:11:00.000-08:00

i should be fixing my room..... since i can never decide what to wear.... all my clothes are on my bed. :p someone help me?

weeeeeeeeeeeeee!

2006-12-01T09:05:00.000-08:00

i'm happy. :O) super happy. we got out bonuses today. and the best part is that i didn't expect it. :O) i only started to work here 2 months ago part-time.

i'm so happy. and grateful. :O)

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

:p

2006-11-30T11:53:00.000-08:00

:p strep throat is going around.... and the flu from the change in weather. today, you don't need a sweater.... yeasterday, i needed two. :p sucks.

i need to go to the grocery. i'm cravign for something (i don't know what yet)... sucks.

i think i want to dye my hair dark...

reindeers

2006-11-25T22:56:00.000-08:00

so my aunt and i went to the grocery this evening at around 10 pm... (we just realized that we needed food and juice)... so my aunt goes upstairs to her room to get her coat. my uncle is still asleep from his "nap" and tells her (hearing the noise) "where are you going? take teh damn reindeer with you. they are making too much noise!" so my aunt laughs and tells me... so i go to his door and say "hey! i would take them, but one is missing.... oh he's on your bed asleep!" and my uncle says "oh" and starts to pat the pillow *tee hee*
so we leave and come back and he's still there and shouts at us "PILAR GOT THREE OF MY REINDEERS! COñO!"
and i said "i think aunt helen got one too!" and he stood up shouting "what the hell has helen got to do with the reindeers.... damn i'm dreaming!"

HAHAHA!

pre-merry christmas....

~vixen~

Sprite Commercial

2006-11-20T13:32:00.001-08:00


HAHAHA!

from my inbox

2006-11-17T14:34:00.000-08:00

YEHUDA BERG'S DAILY CONSCIOUSNESS TUNE-UP

FRIDAY, NOVEMBER 17
A fundamental principle of Kabbalah is whoever looks for a life without trouble - and sits waiting for what is comfortable - will never find it. However, when a person is constantly working towards doing what is right without caring if he will be comfortable or not, this person will always have an easier and better life.

Seek areas of your life where you're desperate for comfort and run towards change!

so, for almost a year I have been reading up on Kabbalah.... I have to say, I really do like it's teachings. its beliefs are the same as the core essense of Catholicism and Buddhism. So it doesn't conflict at all.

anyway.... that't it. kinda short, but i have to leave now. BYEEE!

dammit

2006-11-16T11:47:00.000-08:00

i'm making butter cake. it smells great... *sigh* but i put too much of the batter in the pan. HAHHAHA! OOOPS.... OH WELL... i guess i can fix it.

oh! oh! oh!

2006-11-14T21:32:00.000-08:00

did i mention i am obsessed with baking? because i can't find yummy cakes here aside from crispy kreme? or however you spell it.....

i made pineapple upside down cake a few days ago... Mrs. Mills would be proud! :O)

tomorrow i am making butter cake. i can't wait. i hope it comes out like the ones there!

ruin me....

2006-11-14T20:33:00.000-08:00

ruin me dammit. :p limit me, or try to..... either way, i will still get what i want. :p so, there. i will get my chili red mini... soon

pizza! and borat, and some other stuff

2006-11-14T17:37:00.000-08:00

hee hee! jax! rina! i wish i were with you guys when i watched borat. i found it hilarious. but it's toilet humour.

i had a whole pizza for myself.... yikes....... and my grandmother already warned me not to gain or lose weight. My dress is made for the wedding. I can't wait. It's gorgeous.

i need more money. :p donations are welcome.... send me your coins. hee hee!

oh-fiz

2006-11-13T13:51:00.000-08:00

at the office right now. and i am bored. there really isn't much for me to do. :p

went out with shana the other night. :O) and guess what i saw?? a man wearing the shirt "don't hassle the hoff" HAHAHA! I had to take a picture....

he was really nice about it and posed for me. maybe i should take more pictures of people. HAHAHA!

fall.....

2006-10-19T21:03:00.000-07:00

fall smells the same all over the world (where there is fall ofcourse.... duh!) i hate the cold, but i do love to dress up for it... watching the birds fly south for the winter.... and rest on telephone wires...and watch the leaves change.... and watch them fall.... but no rake them..... hee hee.

2006-10-09T16:01:00.000-07:00

i'm trying to customize this damn blog.... i need help. :p

________________________________________________________________

anyway, still in madrid. and i am loving it. postponing my life has never been better. i wonder for how long i can keep this up... hee hee!

i have seen all of my friends here. except my cousin chris. hahaha! he's been sick. so i will call him again tomorrow. tomorrow i go buy a winter coat in H&M or ZARA. hopefully i find one. liz clairborne had an awesome white down vest which i wanted. if i freeze to death, at least i will look gorgeous.

i want to learn to snow baord! :O) my new obsession at the moment. hahaha. only because my cousin joselu gave me the idea. i'm not too old to learn am i?

OOOOOOOOOO!

2006-10-08T14:27:00.000-07:00

oh.... i have eaten way too much for the second night in a row.... last night i ate in "la trainera" ... so yummy. i had about 20 gambas a la plancha (grilled shrimp) and half of the salpicon. a sea food salad. so yummy. *sigh* i so love that restaurant.

www.latrainera.es

true

2006-10-04T15:08:00.000-07:00

true to my name. i am in madrid now. hee hee.... i love it.
so far i think i have had about two dinners each night since monday. hahaha. going to see cousins and friends this whole week then maybe go to barcelona on monday to visit my cousin.

oh! i finally bought a camera! but it's still being delivered to springfield. :o( i am so excited! and i have to have my regular camera fixed.

how are all of you? i miss you guys.

blah

2006-09-27T12:05:00.000-07:00

crap crap crap. so bored at work... even if i am answering calls.... but hell the pay is great. i can't complain.....

so sad

2006-09-05T11:14:00.000-07:00

i can't believe steve irwin died! i'm really sad. :O(

euthyrox

2006-09-03T07:14:00.000-07:00

this thyroid medicine has made me lose 10 pounds. now all my clothes are loose. :p worse part is that i am hungry every 30 minutes. that is not good at all.... i eat a lot to begin with. so this makes it worse.

shit

2006-09-02T23:00:00.000-07:00

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! i can't stand it! she's so fake!

wer nights... and days

2006-08-26T11:37:00.000-07:00

so the wer people were back here for their summit. except the schroeder, my friend from spain. he's in shanghai now for his "project off". by the way, i got sick after the INXS concert. so i haven't been going out. but i finnally felt well enough to go out wednesday night after having dinner with my family in nano hana. a really good japanese restaurant in valero street. so i picked up mira after dindin, and joined ian in top grill. we then left, made a detour by rustan's liberty office ;O). then headed for nuvo. lo and behold there was an event there. adn mr. dubious just happened to be there. :p so, i ignore him. completely turn my back and pass him. and sit with the boys. mira and i were smirking at this point. hehehe. so, at around 10:30 i start to get sleepy and bored. we text our amusement factor, michelle. hee hee. she was on her way, and so were everyone else. (including mr. january). so mr. dubious was looking at me apparently. and he finally went up to me. and we spoke. let's see if he will actually call. :p not holding my breath at all.anyway, we were sitting with michelle and carmen, when the boys pass. mr. january passed, saw us and sat down beside me. :p talk about awkward. i had nothing to say to him. he was just looking at me though. so eventually we moved to mezze. he mingled and i spoke to peter. then i went to michelle who was having some dilemma. :p then he came to me and spoke to me again. at this point, my mama texted saying to go home early. and she "meant it" yikes! so i said i was going home. but he said no, franco said no. ian said no, michelle said no. mira said "whatever you want" such a good friend. seriously. we can just hang and do whatever and it's cool. so we went to cuisine. i refused to go to the club. we then sat down and mr. january sat down with me and spoke to me. he said the reason he never answered my email was because his team-mate, who is a friend of marco, said that marco and i were still together and that i was bad news (because of that whole monch issue). so i explained everything to him. and that it happened 4 years ago. he said it was petty. hahaha. at least he realized that. he then walked mira and i to my car. got my number. and said he'd call me the next day. so he called at around 12 to meet up. i met up with him after seeing my dad. and we hung out and made a list of things he needed but didn't buy. :p and he said that he was glad that i met up with him. and that it sucked that we only saw each other on the last day. whatever. so, there. i am not sure what he wants. but anyway, we'll see if he even emails me or chats with me when i am online. i don't want to expect anything. :p oh, he did say he would take me out in sf in december. he would rather i be there he said. i could live with his sister. my thoughts: yeah right. why live there when i can stay in my lol's house? :p oh, his dad was fbi. pretty cool. and his best friend is in the cia. bob. he said he'd introduce me, then he decided not to. haha. go figure. reminds me of a situation i was in before. anyway, my cousin chris is in town. so i am excited. i haven't seen him in a long time. i can't wait. :O)

freak

2006-08-20T09:37:00.000-07:00

i'm going to sleep in a bit. my cold is much better, but i am still coughing pretty badly. and to top it off, my friend told me that she saw a woman sitting in my room a whole ago. she had long straight hair. she sees things. great. so now i am going to bed with a night light on. call me a scaredy cat. :p

ambigram

2006-08-19T07:59:00.000-07:00

isn't this cool? miguel was the one that showed this one to me. if i ever do get a tattoo, this is it. a little narcissitic of me isn't it? hahaha. but hey, better than putting a lover's name on your ass.

meds, shmeds

2006-08-19T05:40:00.000-07:00

so i got a sore throat the other day. i caught it from my cousin. and it developed into a cough. crap. so now i am on super strong antibiotics and a cold medicine AND one for the cough. crap. (of course, aside from this i am taking pei pa qua, a chinese herbal remedy... it really helps!)

the antibiotic is okay i guess, doesn't give me acidity or anything. it's the cough pill that is nasty. it's really bitter and you have to imbed it in some food. bananas are ideal. but we ran out. i tried a mango. but it slips out (and you have to brush your teeth 5 times to remove the bitter taste). so, i have tried pitted prunes. it works! though i almost choked on it a while ago, i didn't make it small enough. hee hee!

anyway, one more day of the antibiotic, and 5 more days for the cough pill.

i want a burger!

Being Penny Lane for the second night in my life. hahaha!

2006-08-18T15:08:00.000-07:00

we went to the concert of INXS the other night. and i am finally sane enough to write about it. :p the night started off really cool it was carlo, tattu, bryant, rheena and me. we were seated in the back of the pit of araneta coliseum. and lo and behold... sitting behind me is an ex of my ex. hahaha! the reason it was so funny was because the DAWN played first. (and they broke up over the dawn, if you need me to clarify, or don't know the story, i'll tell you about it). then MiG played. He was really good. and pretty popular. (of course i'm BIASED!) but he was good. he just had to step up a little. then michelle called and told us to move up front with maite and her. i have to admit. seeing JD live is a whole different story. he has a lot of sex appeal. :p eventually people started moving up front as well, so tattu and i stood up on the chairs. i have to admit, it is a good way to get noticed. :p when JD sang "devil inside" he pointed at me in one part.... of course, i'm wondering how he knew. :p teehee. then kirk, blew tattu and i flying kiss. and the drummer pointed his sticks at us. I LOVE IT. so when the concert ended. we moved to the side of the stage, and i started hamming it up by the guitars of INXS. the guy was just laughing at me posing by the guitars while michelle spoke to him. eventually we found out his name was lindsay mckay, a guitar technician for kirk pengilly. he was really nice. he invited us for a drink in edsa shangrila. so anyway, as they left he called me and gave me guitar picks of kirk and told me to give them to my friends. what a sweetheart. so we moved to the dressing rooms. and by that time INXS has moved. we spoke to mig for a while and then we left for the private INXS party at edsa shang. we stayed in the second floor bar (e). later on in the night. Lindsay joined us. and then Todd burr joined us too, he's a drummer. anyway, these two are just hilarious. they are such nice and funny guys. we closed the bar and we moved to the lobby. continued to talk (oh, by this time it was just todd, lindsay, michelle, maite, carlos and i). I KICKED TODD'S ASS! :O) I hope he will really post the picture of his ass on his website. hahaha! that was the night. oh, michelle was asked by JD where the bathroom was. hahaha! at least you spoke to him! but he left and went to his room with a chipipay wearing white charol shoes. :p negative pogi points for you, mister.

I've been trying to post the pictures here on the blog. but it's not working. so here is the link to my album.
http://unagatasalvaje.multiply.com/photos/album/25

whatever....

2006-08-05T12:59:00.000-07:00

sometimes it really makes me wonder what goes on through people's heads when they do something. i mean, do they expect the 3rd party to not react? i don't know. i guess people lack a sensitivity chip nowadays. or maybe it was always missing from all of mankind. or maybe it has to do with respect? i mean if people respected each other more, then i guess there would be less conflict between people?

don't you think our actions are similar to eating a pizza loaded with garlic? we still stink after leaving the restaurant. (thanks Y.b for the analogy). but i guess no one really gets it. except, maybe, a few people.

but anyway, whatever. there seems to be a lot of this going on. maybe it's a trend to back out on your word to a friend. maybe we should ALL do it... just do whatever the hell we all please, regardless of wishes and feelings, reasons and trust. wouldn't that be fun? seriously. i could actually have so much fun with that.

tempting. just toying with that idea. unfortunately, i'm not that kind of person. i'm no saint... but at the very least, i try not to hurt people (unless they deserve it) :O)and yes, i do believe in karma. what goes around comes around. treat your friends like you want to be treated. and as crazy as i am, i hope that my friends will treat me well. at least those that value my friendship do.

dreams be dreams.....

2006-07-25T00:44:00.000-07:00

last night i dreamt i was at the beach. the sea was really clear and calm. i was on a canoe with several other people, all men. one of them i knew, and another was a a crush of mine. we were all chatting and having a good time when it capsized. i don't know why, but it just did. we were all underwater under the canoe and laughing. and swimming. then i found myself in the lobby of a hotel. i entered the elevator with my crush and another guy. we were going up. the guy hugged me, and my crush was standing in the corner watching this happen. strange....

talk about....

2006-07-22T11:46:00.000-07:00

nothing to do... it's 3:01 am and i still can't sleep. it sucks. for the last week all i did was sleep. and now i can't.
my dad offered to buy me the new ibook. should i? hahaha... of course you would all say yes. i would like to modify it though. how exciting. :O)
okay my brother just arrived home from a performance. i wonder how they did. must've been cool. though i am pretty sure he was uncomfortable... ( we both have funny tummies today :p)
anyway, i will try to go to sleep now.

cleansing

2006-07-14T10:09:00.002-07:00

since i last wrote, a lot has happened... my grandmother passed away, some one got sent to rehab, another has become more of an alcoholic, and another has become paranoid. hahahaha. i know it's not funny. but my family has a gift for seeing the humourous side of life. :O) besides, my grandmother is definitely happier where she is now, and is literally an angel now.
i feel bad for my grandfather. he foregts sometimes.... i can't blame him, we all forget sometimes.
they say if the man dies first, the woman will always be okay. not the other way around. :O(

homeward bound

2006-06-23T10:51:00.000-07:00

my short-lived adventure is over (until further notice). I have to fly back home tomorrow. Not that i have to, I WANT to. My grandmother collapsed last night and is in the ICU. :,( so i want to be there. she is supposed to turn 90 on the 4th.
anyway, i will just update whenever. I am so scared. from what i hear, she might not make it.
:O(

"marley and me"

2006-06-22T10:55:00.000-07:00

i just read the book "Marley and me" Marley looks exactly like my old yellow labrador bogart, actually my brother's. Bogart was a puppy of one of my first dogs Broker. Broker was a yellow lab as well and was a saint... along with my first jack russell Baker-girl (from bakersfield CA, my dad named her). Baker and Broker were inseperable (from each other and from me). anyway, that is a different post.
Bogart was adorable. He was a good dog, acted like a puppy as well. but generally good and not naughty like marley. :O) Bogart hated cats until i brought in one street kitten. Pedro (the kitten) would sleep beside bogart and even kiss him when he entered the house. Bogart didn't know what to do at first, but eventually he softened up, and would cuddle with Pedro.
Bogart died at 14 years old last year. The whole household was crying. We had to put him to sleep, but our vet told us to give him one last night for all of us to say good bye and make him as comfortable as possible. Bogart loved fruitloops. we even gave him hamburgers and steak. The next day we had to put him to sleep.
Reading "Marley and Me" reminded me exactly of what we went through. Our other dog Jacky, was sad for a while and wouldn't eat (surprisingly). I cried last night as i finished the book, adn it reminded me of why i don't want another dog (despite getting one earlier this year). :O( i miss my Bogart.

X's and O's

2006-06-22T10:01:00.000-07:00

it's just so frustrating how my ex gave me a shitty camera and it doesn't work now and i can't get the pictures.
the camera frustrates me
he frustrates me, even after being away from each other for 5 months he still does. argh!
and now he is being all sentimental with me and apologetic.
well, men are funny, once they have something they get all cocky. and when they lose it, they are all nice and sweet.
but anyway, that chapter of my life is over, and i shouldn't even bother with it. and now he tells me that he fell in love with me too much. :p great

Gypsy

2006-06-15T18:13:00.000-07:00

gypsy:
Main Entry: Gyp·sy Pronunciation: 'jip-sE
Function: nounInflected Form(s): plural GypsiesEtymology: by shortening & alteration from Egyptian
1 : a member of a traditionally itinerant people who originated in northern India and now live chiefly in south and southwest Asia, Europe, and No. America
2 : ROMANY 2
3 not capitalized : one that resembles a Gypsy; especially : WANDERER

that's what i am, a wanderer. Though I am not exactly sure where my ancestors originated from... I just found out I have Russian ancestors... go figure... explains the family's fondness for vodka ;O) haha!

so here is my little spot for writing about my new adventures, maybe I will get nostalgic and write about the old ones...